Quo Vadis

Ketika langkah terasa berat.
Ketika tujuan terasa menjauh.
Ketika dukungan terasa menghilang.
Ketika sumberdaya terasa menua.

Ketika kesuksesan menjadi biasa.
Ketika harapan sudah terpenuhi.
Ketika jaringan silaturahmi demikian erat.
Ketika diri menjadi Midas.

Quo Vadis?....
Whither goest thou?....
Bersyukur, pasrah, atau menikmati hidup?
Most people will say "Just don't ask!"

This Kind of Bad Feeling

Something I avoided about...but I want it to know...
Somewhere I stayed away...but I want it to be there...
The burden I ignored...but I want it to carry...
The nightmare I obsolete...but I want it to remember...

Nobody wants to be in the paradox situation,
but I want to accept it on my own.
None might be in the chaotic state,
but I have to keep my feet on the ground.

Batara Guru has played his song so deep
Batara Kala has created his travelmachine so unique
then Dewa Ruci is drowned into the seabed
I...don't look like who I was anymore...

This kind of feeling, I never imagined before
I want to keep what I want to belong to
but this is not true...
I feel this is not what I supposed to be happened

I am sorry, I feel guilty
I hurt myself with my falsifiability
I will hurt the people around me

Please make me remained...
even my tears is deserting
even my blood will flow out
even my heart will explode
even I will break into apart.

My Personality

They always smile at me

Even both of you have been far from me, but I still feel your warm-hug.
Even both of you have gone for good, but I still feel your appearance.
Even both of you have not talked to me directly, but I still feel being advised.
Even both of you have not seen me anymore, but I still feel being watched.

Sadness and happiness are only the beginning.
Maybe this feeling will be decreased.
But I always remember...
the last thing both of you have done was smiling at me.
That always keep me strong.

For my beloved Father and Mother